The Missing Piece That Was Never Missing

Story 38/365/2025

Have you ever felt homesick while sitting in your own living room? 

That inexplicable sense that something crucial about you is missing, yet you can't quite name what it is?

This week, we gather Around the Fire to explore Rosalind's extraordinary journey from three decades of existential emptiness to the profound discovery that she was already home.

Read the highlights of Rosalind's Story below

For Rosalind Anderson Ghani, a sensitive soul with bright blue eyes and gentle spirit, life appeared picture-perfect from the outside. While she possessed natural beauty and deep sensitivity, she carried a mysterious homesickness that haunted her every evening—a persistent sense of displacement that no relationship, career success, or external achievement could touch.

Her journey would reveal that sometimes what feels like our greatest emptiness is actually our deepest wisdom calling us home to ourselves. The very longing that caused her decades of suffering would become her most trustworthy guide.

It wasn't until she discovered that the missing piece was never actually missing that everything began to make sense.

The Childhood Earthquake

"Home wasn't always the sanctuary it should have been. The frequent arguments between my parents were more than just background noise—they were emotional earthquakes."

From early childhood, Rosalind's profound sensitivity made her acutely aware of the emotional climate around her. The tension between her parents didn't just affect the household—it gradually eroded her sense of trust and safety in the world. Her young heart learned to retreat, finding solace in animals, flowers, and music rather than the unpredictable world of human emotions.

This retreat wasn't just emotional—it was strategic. Building protective walls around her vulnerable heart, she developed what she calls "a child's way of surviving and finding peace in a world that sometimes felt cruel and overwhelming." But these walls that kept pain out also kept connection in.

The innocent child with blonde curls and bright blue eyes was learning a lesson that would shape decades of her life: people were unpredictable and potentially dangerous, while nature and solitude were safe.

The Persistent Homesickness

Despite these protective strategies, every evening brought the same haunting experience: "As the sun began its descent towards the close of the day, I would be haunted by an overwhelming sense of displacement.

A surge of existential unease would rise in me, leaving me feeling uprooted and utterly homesick, longing for home. Yet I was home, wasn't I?"

This wasn't ordinary sadness or temporary melancholy. It was an existential homesickness so profound it defied explanation. How do you explain feeling displaced while sitting in your own living room? How do you address a longing for home when you are home?

The mystery deepened as she grew older. No matter where she went or what she achieved, that evening homesickness followed her like a faithful shadow, whispering that something essential was missing.

The Deepening Void

As Rosalind entered adulthood, this "inescapable hollow" developed into profound depression that left her barely functional. Career ambitions faded into seasonal work in superficial industries. Even relationships with genuinely caring partners felt skin-deep, unable to touch the core emptiness she carried.

"I found myself feeling envious of the successes and achievements of others, which only deepened the wound. The grass always seemed greener on the other side." The persistent fear that she would never achieve success or happiness pierced into her very soul.

To be in her body felt excruciating. To be herself was becoming a nightmare. The void had grown so large it seemed to consume everything else, leaving her wondering if this aching emptiness was all she would ever know.

The Courageous Descent

At her breaking point, three decades deep in this existential trough, Rosalind faced a choice that would define her entire trajectory: "I realised I had no choice but to face the void. I had to peel off the bandages, chip away at my protective concrete wall and turn the lens inwards."

This wasn't just a decision to seek therapy or try another external solution. This was a commitment to "take the plunge into my own black hole, into my own darkness" and hopefully find breadcrumbs that would show her the pathway home. The journey required taking full responsibility for her inner state, embracing uncertainty, and walking mostly alone into the unknown spaces of her psyche.

It was a hero's journey in the truest sense—a descent into the underworld of her own consciousness, armed with nothing but courage and the faint hope that somewhere in that darkness lay the answers she'd been seeking.

The Revolutionary Discovery

After walking through profound darkness and learning to surrender the desperate search, Rosalind experienced something that changed everything: "This time you breathe and surrender the struggle, leaving the quest behind. Stilling every vibration of your being you soften your gaze and melt the mind."

In that moment of complete letting go, she fell into what she describes as "the arms of Love" and made the most revolutionary discovery of her life. The truth was so simple it was shocking:

"I am home. At last. I AM home! The hole in my heart was nothing more than a blind spot in my mind... I was indeed home all along."

She realized she had always been the diamond she was seeking. The missing piece had never been missing—she had simply forgotten how to recognize her own wholeness.

What Might Your Existential Longing Reveal?

What if your deepest sense of "something missing" isn't evidence that you're broken, but evidence that something whole within you is calling you home to your true Self? How might your persistent homesickness be the most intelligent thing about you, guiding you toward a truth you've temporarily forgotten?

"Your yearning is your heart calling you home. Calling you home to love. Calling you home to your true Self." The very longing that feels like evidence of incompleteness might actually be proof of your inherent wholeness seeking recognition.

Sometimes the most profound spiritual awakening comes not from finding something new, but from remembering something we never actually lost.

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Join Us to Begin Your Homecoming Journey

Join us at our next "Around the Fire" Monday session with Rosalind Anderson Ghani, where she'll guide us through her process of recognizing the wholeness that was never actually missing. Together, we'll explore how to transform existential longing into spiritual homecoming.

As Rosalind reminds us: "You are the diamond! Wishing you a safe journey home!"

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Andrea